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Confusion

I had two more ultrasound scans. One showed some cysts which apparently are not unusual. A GP said I had a fatty liver which upset me. I had an MRI scan and then saw a surgeon because they thought I had had a gallstone pass through the bile duct and there could be more. I had several hospital appointments and was getting weaker and weaker requiring a wheelchair when I got to the hospital. I wasn’t eating and was under the care of a dietitian who prescribed food supplements for me, but I was losing weight and was seriously underweight. The surgeon and anaesthetists hummed and har d about removing my gallbladder given my physical condition and my chronic asthma. They decided against removal. I had an ERCP this is where they lay you on your stomach a put something similar down your your throat to a gastroscope but it has tools on the end which cut slits in your bile duct to hopefully aid the passage of stones and biliary sludge. At some stage I had another gastroscope which showed a hiatus hernia and erosion in my stomach caused by the beginnings of stomach ulcers, but I didn’t have helicobacter pylori which can cause stomach ulcers. I was prescribed Omeprazole which is a proton pump inhibitor. Basically it tackles acid reflux which can also cause stomach ulcers. Confusion was about to set in….

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The descent into hell

My liver function tests were all over the place. I was being seen at the local hospital by a Gastroenterologist who thought my problem was mainly anxiety! I was anxious and had panic attacks for years and would shake a lot. Along with the differences in liver function tests my jaundice would improve or get worse again. I went to A&E twice only to be sent home. Then my liver function tests went up wildly and stayed there. I saw the Gastroenterologist and she had me admitted to hospital. My eyes were yellow too. There was no bed for me apart from in a surgery pre-admission ward where I was treated very badly. I felt very ill but strangely had little pain. The charge nurse wanted me to take paracetamol but I didn’t want it. I was afraid that I had already poisoned myself with it. I wasn’t sure but I thought maybe I had taken a bit more than I should. I was given oramorph which zonked me out. At least I could escape where I was for a while in sleep. I was expected to wash myself most of the time or shower by myself. I could hardly stand and thought I might collapse. One very kind nurse would walk me down to the toilet in the morning as I shook. My gums bled profusely and I would look in the mirror and scare myself. I had stopped taking my antidepressant because I thought it had made me jaundiced. I was to have the most horrendous withdrawal symptoms. The noise from visitors seemed to get dimmer then louder and the banging of doors and lockers would make me jump.

Eventually I was moved to a geriatric ward. Fewer people but very scary and very ill people. Opposite me was a poor lady with dementia. She had at one time been a very beautiful woman, but something very wrong had happened in her life. She would scream at the male nurses. She wouldn’t even let them take her blood pressure. She took a shine to me and wanted me to come over and talk to her. She didn’t realise that I was so ill I could hardly stand. After a few days they moved me to another geriatric ward. I had to witness and hear elderly and not so elderly people scared and dying of cancer. The withdrawal symptoms were worse I’d wake up in the morning seeing double.

I was told I would be having a gastroscope. I would psyche myself up. It was put off and put off. Eventually it was done by a doctor with a very shaky hand which was a worry but proved to be better than a subsequent gastroscope. I was then discharged. I was still very ill. My poor husband thought I was better I was not. Worse was to come.

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To Continue

The doctor came to see me at home I had been sick in bed it was all water as I had been drinking loads. I couldn’t eat and was having about two spoonfuls of soup and leaving the rest. I was passing dark brown urine so I went to see the GP she sent me for an ultrasound it was agony. The results would not be sent to the surgery for a week so I saw another doctor who felt my liver and said it was enlarged. I was more or less teetotal and I certainly am now. He sent me to hospital and the first question I was asked was had I got a will. My poor husband looked scared to death I just kept on cracking jokes. They tested me for everything under the sun including HIV. They said the jaundice could be caused by a virus or illnesses I had had even as a child. I was then sent home and told to come back in I think it was two weeks time. It’s a bit hazy so much has happened and there’s another reason why I’m not sure of the order of things which I shall explain later. When I went back they said they didn’t know what was wrong all the tests were negative.

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How it all Started.

It all started in 2016 shortly before Christmas. My sister phoned me. She happened to say, ” How are you?” I told her I didn’t feel well, which I didn’t. Even my voice was week. I struggled with Christmas. We then had our 40th Wedding Anniversary in January 2017. We had a special celebration with all the family. I nearly didn’t get there as I felt unwell. I didn’t eat the food. The next day I woke up and my skin had gone yellow. Continue reading

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My life now

It turns out that I’m rather ill. Sounds as though I’m sorry for myself, but that’s not the case. I have a rare autoimmune disease called autoimmune hepatitis. It is controlled by steroids and other autoimmune suppressants. The one thing I’ve learnt is that I’m never doing anything I don’t want to again. It’s not the only thing I’ve learnt. I don’t mind saying I’ve been through hell, but learnt that I am much stronger than I thought.